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I am God.
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I am God, Chapter 1
On a gorgeous warm spring night, Andy is winding down
from the sermon on new beginnings, ushering in a fresh set
of changes during the year. After service, there is a gathering
to eat and critique Andy’s sermon. He is a young pastor in his
early twenties, and older members of his church are having a
hard time accepting and submitting to the things Andy believes
in. Patiently, Andy sits quietly among his people, over-hearing
an elderly lady named “Sassy Sally” speaking disrespectfully
about him. Sally said, who does Andy think he is? Thinking he
is going to change this world. Baby, I got news for you. He is
wasting his time trying to change the violence. God himself
can’t change this place. Deeply hurt, Andy turns to another
table just to hear the youth sitting there, speaking secretly as
they planned a night robbery. Andy gets up walks back into
the sanctuary, falls down and cries out to God, what am I to do
Lord, when the people here don’t want to apply themselves to
help change things for the better?
This is when he felt a warm hand fall against his shoulder.
Though Andy thought it might be God’s hand, it turned out to
be “Israel,” a very quiet, middle-aged man. Compassionately,
Israel says, pastor they can’t help change things because
they have not been changed. This church is the land of the
chaldeans, running high in emotions. These people are filled
with the Holy Ghost, Andy softly spoke. I am the one who
baptized them in water. I heard them repent, and receive
their salvation. I totally understand this pastor; Israel replied.
Nevertheless, if they were truly changed within, wouldn’t
they try to help without, instead of trying to stop the change,
by using their lower negative consciousness. Look at it in
this manner Andy, if I smoke cigarettes, and have not been
delivered from it, how can I do the same for others if that
change hadn’t happened to me first? Andy gets up from the
floor, gives Israel a big hug, says farewell, and heads to his
car. Driving home from the church, Andy is thinking about
the conversation between himself and Israel. Israel’s words
of wisdom have stirred something in Andy. It made him think
about how he could handle these issues in church.
Andy begins to have inward thoughts, thinking maybe what
he was taught in bible college, wasn’t really all that accurate.
Pulling into the drive, he walks into the kitchen to get a drink
of water, so he can take his medication. Andy has a degenerate
spine condition, that he was born with. He walks past the
living room headed toward the bedroom to turn in for the
night. Eagerly, his mother asked, how was the church tonight
Andy? Discouragingly, he opened up to his mom, the things
he over-heard the members speaking. I just don’t know what
to do with the church. His mother affectionately says, Andy
whatever you decide, your father and I are behind you all the
way. She gives him a very teary-eyed hug, knowing within
herself the struggle set before him. I know you are, maybe
I just need to get away for a few days, and get my thoughts
together. That is a good idea Andy, She replied. Maybe you
should go up to the cabin we have in the country, where we
took you camping as a child. Spend some time there, do some
fishing, hiking, and enjoy the outdoors. It will get you away
from the city life.
The next morning Andy wakes up feeling refreshed with
the idea of getting away for a couple of days, traveling up
into the mountains where the cabin is. Andy gathers up the
needed supplies for his adventure in the woods, checking his
list to assure himself that he has everything needed. He sends
out a notification email to the congregation. Explaining he
will be out of town for a few days, to ensure nobody gets
worried about not seeing him around town. Andy gives both
his parents a hug, as he walks out the door leaving for his
trip to the cabin. About an hour into the trip Andy is caught
in a major traffic jam, he becomes frustrated, as traffic is not
moving. The thought crosses his mind, maybe this is a bad
idea. I should just turn around and not go any further. Slowly,
but surely the traffic begins to move once more.
Two hours later he runs into stormy weather, slowing him down again.
After six hours under difficult driving conditions, he reaches
the bottom of the mountain. It will take him another hour,
traveling up this winding spiral roadway, where the cabin is
located, at the top right angle of the mountaintop.
Andy finally reaches the cabin, somewhat exhausted from
his drive. Upon exiting the car, he hears wild turkeys, the
sound of running water, and birds singing among the trees.
Relief has struck his heart, as there was no city noise. It is
now mid afternoon, and he is all alone sitting high up on a
mountain wondering what to do next as he unloaded the car.
He knew he was not going to think of the church, nor his
rootless congregation. He was on a retreat to relax, enabling
him to take no thought. Evening was fast approaching, and he
needed to gather some wood into the fireplace. After dinner,
he finds himself sitting on the front porch overlooking the
mountain, stargazing into the moon lite sky. Andy began to
meditate within himself to the lord. You lord created this
beautiful night filled with stars, thinking about what God said,
I have made the stars for a sign. Andy thought deeply within,
a sign for what? This is magnificent, with the sound of all the
crickets, and frogs in the background.
The next morning he is awakened by the colored spectrum
rays of the sun, brightly shining into the bedroom through the
window. Again, he only hears the song of nature, harmonically
from the mountaintop. He rises up feeling great, and prepares
to go fishing at the stream where he played as a child. As he
begins fishing, he looks out in the middle where he sees a huge
rock sticking up out of the water. He hears what appears to be
a voice within saying, Cast your line to the right side of the
rock. Andy obeyed what he heard, and caught a large mouth
bass, almost instantly. He thought to himself, Wow! That was
cool, so he tried it again, and snagged another one just the
same. This went on all afternoon until he reached a whopping
number of fi sh totaling, One-hundred fifty-three catches, as he
released them into the water. Andy decided it was time to head
back to the cabin. As he began to walk up the hillside, his back
became stiff from the degenerate spine condition.
He reached a special location where a big oak tree stood
all alone. He decided to take a break, sitting beneath the tree.
He becomes relaxed listening to the audible sounds of nature,
allowing him to fall into a deep sleep, entering a dream-like
state of mind. He was astonished when awakened, by the
voice of Christ, finding himself elevated up among the stars
looking toward earth. Floating high up with Christ in the stars,
Andy wondered if he had died and gone to heaven. No Andy,
you have not died, the inner voice declared. I have come to
help you understand all things within your heart, the way I
intended for you to understand
